New Years Eve 2010

It's been a very interesting year depending on how you choose to look at it. I got to ride on mules, surf down sand dunes, do a burlesque act in front of my students, and meet some new people. However, like every year, this year must come to a close. As much as it's been a fun year, it's also been stressful and at times depressing. Reflecting on my life, I am still confused and unable to make decision on my future. Everything seems to move very slow.

I am not sure what I would change about this year. It's been a good one. I say it's one full of reunions. I got to live with my sister for a while. My friend from Singapore came to visit. I got to spend a month with an old friend from high school. And I got to see all my family members at least once.

On the other hand, I lost all my pictures because I kicked over my hard drive. I lost another student to guns. I got sick twice this year and ended up having to spit blood out of my mouth. Got into a minor car accident. Missed the Nutcraker and had to purchase the tickets twice.

For some reason, this year feels different. It feels more like a new beginning than any other year. I look forward to it.

Snow Stuck

I guess I have not mastered the art of planning ahead. I thought that I had everything covered when I had organized a trip to jersey to get some stuff done but little did I know that it was going to be a huge snow storm. I didn't know until my friend had texted me and told me to be careful because it is going to snow a lot more during the afternoon. I thought that everything should be fine and we should be able to make it back into the city in time for the Nutcracker. A ballet that I've longed to see and we finally bought the tickets for.

On our way back, despite our better judgement, we hit a curb as we were going down hill. Somehow that hit was enough to throw the car out of alignment. With the weather condition and the condition of the car, our hopes of going back into the city was gone. The goal of going to see the nutcracker was out the window as well. So there it is... our tickets..

We ended up leaving the car in the parking lot of a plaza and my sister picked us up and we stayed over the night in her house. I guess after all it was better than getting stuck on the train back to the city and sleeping on the train. Need to remind you, I was under dressed and I didn't have any food on me so we would definitely be some very unhappy campers.

Finally today, we were able to drop the car off at a mechanics shop and take a bus back into the city. I was freezing of course and my feet were so cold I could barely feel them. I really need some warm shoes this year. Not to mention, some really warm socks as well..

Life... Love...

I've lived and I've loved. And although I didn't think so... but I also had my heart broken. But now I must learn to let go and move on. Life is grand and great just the way it is with all its little wonders. It's too precious to dwell on the past when you have all your moments passing right in front of your eyes.

It's time to start living and stop thinking. I need to stop holding my breath and start breathing... because the past will always stay in the past. And no matter how hard you think, it will never come back.